Thank You...for everything

From Todaycollegetour

I guess there’s not much else to say. I’ve been coming here a while now, and you know (Pause) thank you. Thank you for giving me my life back. For as long as I can remember I have been at the whims of everyone else. I never really had control of my own life. You gave me that, or you at least helped me discover that. You helped me discover what was always there, I guess I just didn’t know it.

I mean, I use to live, I guess, through others. I was always there to help my friends, family, and everyone…everyone, but me. I never gave me a chance to just be. I am always on the move, always having somewhere to go, something to do. I never took a moment for myself, and if I did I didn’t know what to do with the time.

I learned from my Practical Theology class that I helped so many other people because I couldn’t help the one person I wanted to the most—my dad. I mean, it makes sense I guess. But you know all of that….no need to go back now. So, after the months we have been spending together, meeting every week, I have learned who I am. I have learned who I want to become. You helped me reclaim myself. I know now that although life may not always be easy, it sure doesn’t have to be difficult. I mean sure, life has bumps, but that’s what friends and family, and those close to you are for. The people you care about help you during those times.

You taught me to feel again, that it is okay to feel however the hell I feel at that time. It is okay to be. To simply be.

So, although life isn’t always easy, although there are bumps in the road—it sure is one enjoyable experience right?

You helped me get my voice back. When it seems the skies are gray, and everyone is motionless, or everyone is running around and it seems a million things are going on at once—I know I exist. I know people care, that these people, all around me have the same feelings, same emotions. I am not alone. In this world filled with millions of people I am one. But I am one with a voice.

I have a choice. I have options. I can do whatever I dream of. I know now that I am not alone in this world, that others feel the same as me, in some way. You helped me rediscover me. You helped me find my voice. And underneath it all you helped me find myself—who I truly am.

So, thanks. Thanks for helping me get my life back. In this crazy world we are not alone are we? And underneath it all, we all have insecurities, we all have voids and emptiness, and ranges of all kinds of emotions. It’s good to know we aren’t alone isn’t it?

So, thanks again, you don’t know what you have done for me. (PAUSE) So…here we are. Now what? Where do we, where do I, go from here?